I like to be prepared for everything. I critically think Every Thing To Death. I anticipate.
But maybe I shouldn’t, because all that energy I spend ‘preparing’ doesn’t prevent me from being surprised. I am surprised all the time. I basically look like this Christmas ornament on a daily basis:
I don’t know what surprised me the most, but here are some of the shocking discoveries I made in 2013:
+As a former non-animal person (scarred in my childhood), I surprise myself by saying that I love my dog, Levi. And he makes me less scared of other animals. I even touch other animals now without prompting and think they are “cute”.
+I would rather spend my money and time on furnishing my home and stocking my kitchen than on fancy clothes, shoes, and bags. I recently asked my bestie, O, for a dutch oven for my birthday. Gasp! Incidentally I used it last night for the first time and it’s totally awesome!!!
+I need more sleep. I used to teach fitness classes at the gym at 6AM every day. No issue. But it was really wearing on me (and G, who is super supportive and comes to all of my classes with me) and it was making me less effective during the day. So, I’ve shifted two of my AM classes to the PM (and added a full day off!) A year ago, if you told me I would teach classes in the evening I would have said you were crazy.
+My desire to get married again motivated me to buy a ring, do the proposing, and set things in motion for 2014. After a failed marriage a few years ago, I didn’t rule out getting married again, but I definitely felt a little disenchanted. And, as a new person to same-sex relationships, I never thought in a million years that I would propose marriage to someone else! But as they say, when you meet the right person… surprising things happen!
By and large, I love the surprises that come my way. Surprises keep things fresh, interesting. I should prepare and over-think things less, but it definitely comes in handy preventing bad surprises from happening. Maybe there is a happy balance in there somewhere- maybe I’ll be surprised that I’ve stumbled upon my Goldilocks moment in 2014.