Day 17 (Wednesday) – My thoughts today were permeated with the chant 3 days left… 3 days left… 3 days left…
I was really hoping that after detoxing for more than 2 weeks I would be feeling a lot stronger about my avoidance of sugar, sweeteners, and high glycemic carbs but it is still a daily struggle and I’m just waiting for it to be over with.
I wanted to leave this diet with a new attitude: Ha! Take that, sugar!! See, I can live without you nooooo problem!
Perhaps my expectations were way too high. It would really be helpful if I ate sugar and it made my stomach hurt or gave me gas or bloated me to the high heavens. But, it unfortunately makes me feel pretty great. Except when I eat it in excess, then there is an energy crash to deal with afterwards. So in that vein, let’s focus on what else I’ve learned.
- My cravings deal only with sugary carbs, not starchy carbs. I can eat an entire meal, leaving the bread/pasta/potato/rice for the end and feel satisfied enough by the protein and vegetables to skip the carbs on the plate. But, I want a big’O bowl of ice cream after dinner.
- On this diet, I have not had any indigestion, which I previously had pretty much on a daily basis. Not terrible indigestion, but consistent, regardless of what I ate. Now, I have had a few cheats, and those have not affected my GI. So, I know that I have a food sensitivity to something, but not an intolerance. I suspect dairy because I’ve gone gluten free before, and that didn’t change anything with me.
- My compulsion to eat something sugary after meals is not a result of a sugar “addiction”. It is my way of getting the food taste out of my mouth after eating. If I brushed my teeth after every meal, that would take care of wanting a piece of chocolate. But honestly, who can be bothered to brush their teeth 5 times a day??
- I don’t drink nearly enough water.
- My energy is more appropriately distributed when I’m off sugar. Sleep is deep and uninterrupted (if I eat enough and don’t wake up with hunger pains) and wake up without two hits on the snooze and no afternoon crash.
- There are a lot of foods that I love that fit into this plan, and many recipes that I loved before that can be easily modified to fit into the plan.
- I can see myself fitting into a semi-paleo diet from now on, with some exceptions (ahem… sometimes dessert)
Day 18 (Thursday) – BodyAttack day. My class cheered as I finished Track 9 (Grenade) full force with my lungs on the floor—they knew it was my last BodyAttack class while on the diet, as many of the members are coming to housewarming on Saturday. Lots of pats on the back and “Just one more day!” congratulatory remarks. It was enough to keep me motivated for just one more day. Two really, if you count today.
Day 19 (Friday)- I have arrived.
I was good all day.
So I treated myself to pizza at the newly opened Matchbox at the Mosaic. The sun was out, the breeze was light, and I sat outside on the patio with my best girl and enjoyed half of a salad, and half of an individual sized pizza. I appreciated the sweetness of the berries in the salad, and the tomatoes in the pizza. I savored the texture of the crust and the richness of the goat cheese. It was perfect.
Day 12 (Friday)- Dreading the weekend again, but this time it will be doubly hard since I’m leaving to go out of town to visit family in PA this afternoon through Sunday. It will be hard to impose a weird eating schedule on other people’s time, and also make good choices while out to eat.
But, today, I can be good.
My energy is evening out- plenty during the day (except during my workouts, still lacking there) and a deep uninterrupted sleep at night. The activity with packing and traveling takes my mind off of food for the most part during the day.
I cooked a spaghetti squash prior to leaving to take with me in hopes my offer to cook dinner would help me avoid at least one night out at a restaurant. And it paid off- we all ate a delicious dinner with salad, spaghetti squash, onions, tomatoes, itallian sausage, and shrimp. My host had baked an unbelievably delicious smelling zucchini bread prior to my arrival, not knowing about my diet, and I had a small piece for dessert.
I’ll blame it on not wanting to offend rather than weakness. Once you succumb to the big c-h-e-a-t, doing it again is relatively easy. It’s a slippery slope.
Day 13 (Saturday)- Sleeping a lot definitely helps with dieting, and my nearly 10 hours overnight was very good for keeping my cravings at bay just a bit longer in the morning.
I’ve had a debate going with myself for the last 24 hours where I have agreed that while I will be doing my best to stay on diet as much as possible, if I get off track a little bit (ie. Zucchini bread or other out-of-town treats) I’m not going to beat myself up about it. I can’t have an enjoyable weekend away while being so restrictive that I’m stressed out about it. It’s not fun for the people I’m visiting either.
So, in that vein, I happily ate a late breakfast shake and some eggs for early lunch, took a short jog with the dog (and I mean short… I think I actually ‘trotted’ for about ¾ mile and just walked the rest of the way. No need to torture myself with another disappointing low energy workout when I’m hardly eating anything to burn off anyways), and rewarded myself for my good intentions with the town’s claim to fame (other than the Yuengling Brewery) – The Pottsville Crème Donut at Dunkin Donuts.
This is not like a typical Dunkin Donuts donut, folks.
Like I said in my reckoning from last Monday, I’m not blowing this thing on a krispy kreme. But I’m hella blowing it for a Pottsville Crème! I almost went blind in ecstasy when I bit into it. Or, maybe that was my eyes rolling back into my head so hard I nearly pitched backwards and fainted. THIS makes life worth living, people!
Is it bad for you? Yes. Terrible, actually. It’s full of gluten, dairy, sugar, and not only has Zero useful nutrients for your body, it probably completely negates all of the useful nutrients I’ve tried to put in my body up until this point today. But, it’s a rare treat. And I don’t care if you’re judging me right now.
The after effects? I felt great- for the first time since I started this diet, I felt full. Satisfied. And I promptly crashed in a heap of lethargy about 3 hours later with a little bit of belly bloat and some gas. Who’s gonna say ‘I told you so’? Go on, I don’t care. If I had to do it all over, I wouldn’t change a thing. But, hopefully I won’t be doing it over tomorrow!